New moon in Leo this morning at 5:45 EST at 0 degrees. Have the courage to be true to yourself and honor your inner flame. 🔥
“Had I not created my whole world, I would certainly have died in other people’s.”
– Anais Nin
There is no need to engage the fears and insecurities of the lower domain. I have my own world in my higher mind. And in my world, I can experience love with just one thought and joy with just one breath. This is my world.
Taking in some Virgo woman energy on the heels of the New Moon in Virgo yesterday morning. It is a time for refocusing our minds and bodies in order to achieve a feeling of groundedness in our daily lives.
When we feel a sense of control and order in our thoughts and actions, we can project a much clearer vision to the world. If you want to inspire, there is a certain degree of focus you must have in your message. If you want to touch the world, you must first touch your center and feel what is driving your soul.
“It’s focusing and making it compelling. You can’t just focus on it. You’ve got to create a clear and compelling future in that area that will pull you towards it so you’re not trying to push yourself.” – Anthony Robbins
The Full Moon in Cancer appeared this week and it felt largely like a stronger conviction to my feminine power and its purpose to nurture, secure, heal in this lifetime. But, perhaps, with Venus Retrograde directly on my ascendant it felt like a quiet energy, a soft reminder.
Then I awoke this morning and remembered that this week is quite significant for me. For it was 5 years ago that I consciously chose to start my search for personal freedom and true fulfillment. Yeah, kind of a big deal.
Much like this week, there was a beautiful full moon in my sun sign. It fell on January 11, 2009 at 22 degrees of Cancer, embracing the sabian symbol of a young woman awaiting a sailboat. During that time, I had many vivid dreams about an ex and I would often wake up craving the amazing connection we had and continue daydreaming about the wonderful life we could have together.
There was a day, several days after the full moon, when I just decided, very out of nowhere, that I was going to stop waiting for my happily ever after and go get it. That was also the day that I decided to become a single mother and change my life forever.
I was greatly inspired that day by a book shared with me the previous summer by a colleague. The book is called The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer and here is an excerpt from her poem:
I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand on the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
That day I chose to say, “Yes.” Despite my past failures, despite who I would disappoint, despite the future challenges, despite my deepest fears, I said, “Yes.” to life.
Today I am reminded that my fantasies are some of the most beautiful parts of my mind. And I should never stop dreaming. I should never stop believing. The most miraculous things happen when we decide to listen to our soul and speak our truth. The most miraculous things happen when we stop waiting for our ship to arrive and we dive into the water and go swimming for it.
Happy Full Moon. Love and light xoxo
Yes, I miss you, but those words cannot be redeemed for a one-way, non-stop ticket back into my life.
Actions speak louder than words. My love is free, but there is a fare to pay to get back on board. Show me honesty and commitment. I can’t guarantee a smooth ride, but hold on and do what it takes to get to your desired destination: my heart.
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Venus turned retrograde in the sign of Capricorn this past Saturday. And amazingly, that very night, love came back to visit.
In Capricorn, love is taken more seriously. The value of love is found through work and dedication. And as a little Libra rising, I have found myself working in my own way, through reflection and meditation. Since Venus entered the shadow phase in late November, my mind and my body have asked me for moments of stillness and introspection. I haven’t wanted to speak or to write very much. I just want quiet so I can hear the message of my heart: “My dear, you have seen your true worth. Now only let others in if they are able to see it, too.”
Venus entered Capricorn in early November and thoughts of my first home and my grandparents have been on my mind. I’ve thought about their imperfect devotion to each other, carried by true love and commitment. I’ve dreamt about forever love and I’ve wondered when it will arrive in my heart.
The truth is that we can’t promise more than forever right here in the moment. Our life path is uncertain and our love path even more so. But still, I long for that kind of devotion.
I want to receive love completely or, it’s as if, I don’t want it at all. I will wait for the real thing to come.
But then a glimpse of love returns and I want to take a chance, believing that this time it will be true. My heart has grown wiser since you last saw it, though. My heart has learned to speak up.
I am asking for you to rise higher, to inspire for a greater love. I am asking a lot, but there is so much to receive. I am hard on you, but I will never leave you alone in this journey. I will always be there, with my hand extended, to walk this path with you. I will expect that you do the same for me as I reach within myself for a light to guide our way.
True love is risk a worth taking. Love is a labor of life which bears the fruit of our own special message of truth, which reveals our purpose. We should aspire to receive unconditional love, not for completion of self, but for the giving of ourselves.
Love and light to you.
~ Inspiration from the new moon in Sagittarius conjunct my natal moon ~
“When you find someone who breaks you open and makes you feel things; you fight for them.”
You fight for the breath of intimacy and discovery. You fight for the moment when fear disappears and there is only love. You fight because your soul is alive in their eyes, on their skin, within their heart. You fight and your passion is undeniable.
The fight or flight response. It’s instinctual. Beyond our instincts are our soul desires. If we can appreciate the beauty found in the silhouette of our emotions, we can embrace and then let go. When we encounter the instinct to fight or take flight, we must look deeper and source will tell us to just let go. Let go and let love.