Venus Retrograde in Capricorn ~ December 21, 2013 – January 31, 2014

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Yes, I miss you, but those words cannot be redeemed for a one-way, non-stop ticket back into my life.

Actions speak louder than words. My love is free, but there is a fare to pay to get back on board. Show me honesty and commitment. I can’t guarantee a smooth ride, but hold on and do what it takes to get to your desired destination: my heart.

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Venus turned retrograde in the sign of Capricorn this past Saturday. And amazingly, that very night, love came back to visit.

In Capricorn, love is taken more seriously. The value of love is found through work and dedication. And as a little Libra rising, I have found myself working in my own way, through reflection and meditation. Since Venus entered the shadow phase in late November, my mind and my body have asked me for moments of stillness and introspection. I haven’t wanted to speak or to write very much. I just want quiet so I can hear the message of my heart: “My dear, you have seen your true worth. Now only let others in if they are able to see it, too.”

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Venus entered Capricorn in early November and thoughts of my first home and my grandparents have been on my mind. I’ve thought about their imperfect devotion to each other, carried by true love and commitment. I’ve dreamt about forever love and I’ve wondered when it will arrive in my heart.

The truth is that we can’t promise more than forever right here in the moment. Our life path is uncertain and our love path even more so. But still, I long for that kind of devotion.

I want to receive love completely or, it’s as if, I don’t want it at all. I will wait for the real thing to come.

But then a glimpse of love returns and I want to take a chance, believing that this time it will be true. My heart has grown wiser since you last saw it, though. My heart has learned to speak up.

I am asking for you to rise higher, to inspire for a greater love. I am asking a lot, but there is so much to receive. I am hard on you, but I will never leave you alone in this journey. I will always be there, with my hand extended, to walk this path with you. I will expect that you do the same for me as I reach within myself for a light to guide our way.

True love is risk a worth taking. Love is a labor of life which bears the fruit of our own special message of truth, which reveals our purpose. We should aspire to receive unconditional love, not for completion of self, but for the giving of ourselves.

Love and light to you.

In the Eyes of Others ~ Mars in Libra

 
 
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“My path is reflected in the eyes of others…if I want to find myself, I need that map.” Paulo Coehlo – Aleph
 
Having my ascendant and natal Mars in the 1st house of Libra, I tend to look for myself in others and believe that the full development of my personality will be through another.
 
 
It’s true. There is an undeniable reliance on others to teach us, love us, hurt us, provoke us, inspire us…so that we may get closer to the source of who we are.
 
We need that map, but let’s read it for what it is: a reflection of the universal soul. Everything we see in others and in the world can be found within us. To find ourselves, we must choose reflections that inspire our highest potential, our most loving self.
 
Finding yourself in a reflection of pain may have a purpose, but it is not a place to stay. It is an inevitable stop along the path, but it is not our destination. The place where we must always be headed is one and one only: truth.
 
Time to move forward with truth. Namaste.

Fight or Flight ~ New Moon Conjunct Natal Moon

~ Inspiration from the new moon in Sagittarius conjunct my natal moon ~

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“When you find someone who breaks you open and makes you feel things; you fight for them.”

You fight for the breath of intimacy and discovery. You fight for the moment when fear disappears and there is only love. You fight because your soul is alive in their eyes, on their skin, within their heart. You fight and your passion is undeniable.

The fight or flight response. It’s instinctual. Beyond our instincts are our soul desires. If we can appreciate the beauty found in the silhouette of our emotions, we can embrace and then let go. When we encounter the instinct to fight or take flight, we must look deeper and source will tell us to just let go. Let go and let love.